Deconstructing Church

Writing my way to an inclusive and affirming Church

  • Finding your Place

    From the age of five or six I have been a musician. I had an exceptional primary music education, with two passionate teachers leading choirs, recorder groups and more. From the age of seven I have been a pianist, and from the age of ten a wind player. At the age of eleven I became… Continue reading

  • When Nothing Feels Enough – I AM

    I may not be able to run any more. But I remember vividly when I did run, training for the Great North Run. I pushed myself so hard, but never seemed to reach my training goals. I got so fed up, frustrated, and probably got in my own way more than I helped myself. I… Continue reading

  • International Women’s Day 2023

    I have some incredible women in my life. Before I even started to write today, I reflected on them all and realised just how blessed I have been by women. Women who live all over the UK, and even beyond. Women who send me little gifts when they see things that remind them of me.… Continue reading

  • Crawling towards Justice

    As someone living with Chronic Fatigue I understand the gifts in moving slowly. Taking time and care to make sure what I plan to do fits with my capacity. Only setting off down a path once I am confident I can make it there – and back. Carrying only what I need with me and… Continue reading

  • Learning from the Mystics

    I have just finished the exceptional book ‘Femina‘ by Janina Ramírez, and it has given me serious pause for thought. Not just about the historical characters explored in the book. Many of those I was fortunate to already know, although some have been a joy to discover. Reading the book also led me to consider… Continue reading

  • Sitting on the Outside

    A few days ago I stumbled across an advert for some free 1:1 yoga sessions, to support health and wellbeing. I applied. After all, my health team keep telling me I need to do something to get my breathing going again, and gentle exercise would be beneficial. There is a whole mental block around doing… Continue reading

  • New Year, no New Earth …

    Isn’t God’s world miraculous? Have you ever looked at an Orchid, for example, and noticed the intricacies of the delicate patterns on the petals? Or taken in the aroma of a meal, and considered how amazing it is that the scent and taste come together to give us a multi-sensory experience when we eat. How… Continue reading

  • Heartsore

    I’ve felt the heartache of Ophelia and Andromache. I’ve waited with Juliet and watched with Penelope. I’ve grieved with Othello and rooted for Odysseus. I’ve even empathised with Circe and understood Shylock. I’ve had my heart broken with Fantine and Eponine. I’ve had my heart shattered over and over with Scarlett O’Hara! And in writing… Continue reading

  • When the Dust Settles

    Dust is a common theme throughout the Bible. Dust is a common theme in my household! Just last week I wrote ‘Dust me’ in the thin covering on my daughter’s TV stand. It is still there. Although I would love her to actually do the chore, it does still make us smile. Fun dust. From… Continue reading

  • Reflections on Bereavement

    When you lose someone dear to you, there is no experience like it. That moment, should you be by their side at their death or receive the news second hand, never leaves you. They have left, but the moment of their leaving will not. Funny, that. The firsts begin. The first time you enter into… Continue reading

About Me

Hello, I’m Rebecca! I am a neurodivergent cishet woman living with Long Covid. I am a qualified and registered Music Therapist, and a Tutor. My specialist interests are faith, spirituality, music and social justice (including safeguarding). I write when I feel like it and have the ‘spoons’. I co-lead the online faith community The Ordinary Office, and write for various blogs, books and resources as required.